I'm finally blogging again ! It's been long since I last wrote because stupid IE refused to post my previous written piece and got me angst. Lol

Finally, another semester is over; finally, some rest for me, for all the BMS peeps. yays which explains why I have the time and mood to blog again. And coincidentally, twin has started blogging again too ! I hope she'll update more often because I guess this is the only way we can still stay in contact.

I remember I stopped blogging when I just got attached and life's getting better in all areas, be it in relationships, studies or finance. So basically, I really blog when I'm feeling down. True enough, the only time when I can be completely truthful is when I'm blogging. I have nothing to say to my parents because they dont understand me. I cant let anyone including my friends to see the weak side of me because I want to be their strong pillars and I want them to see me as a cheerful and happy friend. Even to the one closest to me, I came to realise I cant say much because everything will just end up sour. Slowly, I just grew accustomed to keeping everything to myself. It's beneficial in a way it makes me stronger. I used to be a crybaby, now I can really hold my tears !

Been feeling lost for months, with no direction to where I'm going, no idea what I really want. I think it is probably because I'm afraid to make another decision that will make me regret so I really dont know which way to go. I'm just struggling to hang on to the present. The heavy workload and many other matters took up so much of my time that I realise I havent had time for myself for so long. And I guess this vacation, it's time to stop on my footsteps and think about what I really need and want in life.

But the meanwhile, let me catch up with all the friends and fun I've missed because of the stupid tcm mods. Cant wait !

On the lighter note, my puppy is getting on fine but i really dont want to be the one to give her up. If things continue this way, Im scared i dont have a choice because I cant cope alone, no one wants to be responsible for her, which really awakens me to some things, and made me think over the kind of person I'm with.